Freedom and Art has a PRICE...: July 2015

Monday, July 20, 2015

Ahh Freedom,...What is freedom??Everyone and Anyone have their opinion on the matter,They say this and that.They say a lot of things..But sometimes what you think is Freedom,is just another Prison that you have gladly put yourself in.Freedom is an experience,and a Learning.An exploration more of the inside than of the outside,although those two things come hand in hand,in a way,but it is the discovery and the knowing of the deepest and darkest recesses of your innermost being and the realization of what that gooey and sticky stuff that makes you who you are and makes you tick and what gives that resonating energy that feeds your very SOUL is .There is a saying in the good book which goes like this "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.",and so after all those years,I have been working from one company to another,trying to make a living.I have been a Clerical Staff for VECO(which is a fancy word for janitor and slave),I have been an Abstractor and an Indexer,a Call Center agent,A Roto Artist and a Production Worker for a publishing company.After all those wasted years working for the man,earning dimes and nickels,the best thing I learned about in working in a company is that the best thing in life shouldn't be wasted in working for one,I mean it will drain your soul,pulverize your spirit,and just kick your heart and self esteem around like you are a piece of rotten meat.It will turn you into a zombie,with nothing to look forward to but the dark circles in your eyes and a tear in your soul webbing endlessly in your tired little heart.You see as a kid,I always wanted to be an artist,to make a living creating something out of paper,taking the images out of your brain and fleshing it out with colors you can touch,but that dream was crushed when I graduated from college.It was Hard to find a job in that line of work without selling your soul to the devil at a very cheap price,and I did for a while,jumping from one job to another,and I didn't like it,In fact I hated every minute of it,and so I decided to take the risk,to take that big plunge,to hell with their jobs,and now back to that quote I first said earlier,I decided to risk it all and be a freelance artist.To be the best out there and feed and grow my soul back to health.Yes,It has its up and downs,It is quite unstable,often scary at times,but you know what,I've never been happier,and I only wished that I have decided earlier and not wasted too much of my time and soul.This is what I want to do the rest of my life,and For me,This is my FREEDOM....